Do actions truly speak louder than words? 
Words can be lies, actions can be mistakes, yet we still stick a stake in the promises they make 
because deep down, we know that we're 
living in a dream from which we don't want to wake. 
A dream
where the world doesn't lie and we're not running out of time to
live our lives even with the rules designed to keep us in line. 
A dream
where there is no line,
where...

Sanitize!

Sanitize is the skin
of an elderly alligator
on a teenaged human.
It's skin splitting apart 
at the knuckles and finger joints,
forming tiny cuts on my hands
accompanied by fluorescent red dots of blood.

it's a call to action,
a call to fight,
fight for right
and avoid the plight
that stays with us day and night,
a motto to convince us we're alright.

Sanitize!

It sent me to war
with my wounded hands,
armed with warm water
and lemon-scented...

and one winter’s day
you hopped on your empty train
when your anxieties amassed into something tangible
frightening
real
and what could you do but reach for the door
and fall down the hole to wonderland


these golden hour sunbeams
fall like feathers on your skin
every moment is a grainy memory
every color you breathe in
is a heartache dipped in nostalgia

the unknown has never looked so enticing

steady lullaby of train wheels over wooden tracks
sepia sky
emotions,...

The ocean speaks  in poetry
Syllables slammed into the sand, sounding out the tides
Like a language uttered by ancient beings
Ripples flicker from the shore, forming words that echo in the crash of waves
Cool, blue-green waters contain the sentences of silent love
Even the wind whispers the condemnation of the structured,
The forced strictness of the grammatical.
The drumbeat of raindrops are rhythm enough for the surf
A heartbeat wildly stuttering in a dance of speechless beauty
The...

goddamn, do I know the name of love.
and have I basked in the grip of grief.
I’ve dined in between death and horror,
made them both ache for relief.

I’ve adored, praised, begged on my knees.
Sizzled hot and boiled cold.
Cracked and poured remains of truth,
over girls who bared their teeth.

Twist me into your confessional, hard-hearted,
tonight I’m dark wood, incense, your first sin.
I’ll bow my head. I’ll kiss your temples.
Tonight I’m comfort, mercy,...

Your hand, my waist
Our worlds collide
Champagne in my face
Left me to die
You said that I was plenty
But not enough for me to stop you leaving

How wonderstruck
Your eyes meet mine
Counting the ways you didn't say goodbye
My mind searched for forgiveness
Swear I tried it God as my witness

Longing for acceptance
I've shed enough tears
Losing you was my greatest fear
Glasses fogged up, begged you to stay
All too late, you were...

Your hand, my waist
Our worlds collide
Champagne in my face
Left me to die
You said that I was plenty
But not enough for me to stop you leaving

How wonderstruck
Your eyes meet mine
Counting the ways you didn't say goodbye
My mind searched for forgiveness
Swear I tried it God as my witness

Longing for acceptance
I've shed enough tears
Losing you was my greatest fear
Glasses fogged up, begged you to stay
All too late, you were...

Your hand, my waist
Our worlds collide
Champagne in my face
Left me to die
You said that I was plenty
But not enough for me to stop you leaving

How wonderstruck
Your eyes meet mine
Counting the ways you didn't say goodbye
My mind searched for forgiveness
Swear I tried it God as my witness

Longing for acceptance
I've shed enough tears
Losing you was my greatest fear
Glasses fogged up, begged you to stay
All too late, you were...

Your hand, my waist
Our worlds collide
Champagne in my face
Left me to die
You said that I was plenty
But not enough for me to stop you leaving

How wonderstruck
Your eyes meet mine
Counting the ways you didn't say goodbye
My mind searched for forgiveness
Swear I tried it God as my witness

Longing for acceptance
I've shed enough tears
Losing you was my greatest fear
Glasses fogged up, begged you to stay
All too late, you were...

See my face for what it is, not what I show. 
I'm ashamed and sickened by myself. 
See my persona, which hides me like a storm of snow. 

My true feelings are difficult to reach like a top shelf. 
No one can get to them, not even me. 
But I don't need honesty, since nobody wants my true self. 

Sorrow is costly, but smiles are handed out for free. 
The preferences I express are no longer mine 
But I paste...

I gaze upon the mirror 
No longer do I fear
No longer am I afraid of the girl in the mirror

All her curves
All her flaws
All her moles
All her weight
All of which are why she’s great

All her pimples
All her zits
All her scars
All her mistake
All are reasons why I love her

She is strong 
She is brave
She is kind
She is smart
She is PERFECT

I gaze upon the mirror
No...

soliloquy, prelude.
i love you, he says, half a lie.
the lilt of his words is pleasant, as if honey under his tongue and
        an almost-melody in his throat.
(did you know that tragedies are when the greatest of men fall?)
this is how it begins:
        with his touch
against the fluttering pulse of his dearest,
        with your hands clasped at your dynasty’s crown,
with the serpentine empress kneeling before a tyrant, compliant.
the fermentation of power, acid in the...

Even before she picked up the phone
I could hear her smiling voice,
"We are coming home"
I got out
but what I didn't was
"Hold on"
We didn't make it on time
we where almost there, only two more months,
I could already smell that familiar sent
of her
of her around around me
wrapping me into her
but I didn't realize it meant goodbye
Sometimes I can still hear her heart
crying
out to us
oh how she...

Even before she picked up the phone
I could hear her smiling voice,
"We are coming home"
I got out
but what I didn't was
"Hold on"
We didn't make it on time
we where almost there, only two more months,
I could already smell that familiar sent
of her
of her around around me
wrapping me into her
but I didn't realize it meant goodbye
Sometimes I can still hear her heart
crying
out to us
oh how she...

The ocean kissed her feet,
the sun kissed her hair,
her hair braided
with dreams. 

Young dreams, but big dreams
simple dreams, yet they seemed far
far away from her beach
with the sandpipers darting
about
the waves.

She called up to the moon,
and the stars sang back,
throwing melodies
into the universe. 

Life pushed at her, 
relentless shoving
out of her comfort zone
into walls of hurt
and mountains of fear.
But she pushed back,
growing stronger 
as...

i look up
at the sky
i feel like
sand in the hourglass
aimless
f
  a
     l
       l
          i
             n
                 g
i ' m ...
not entirely
sure where to go
it's been
2 years
since my life shattered
so why havent the pieces healed yet ?
it's been
2 months
since it shattered again ...

Broke his heart!


I don't know,
Why is time passing so slow?
What am I doing ?
My brain is just cooing!
'Stop stressing me out so much,
i just want you to scotch.'
My sins can't leave me alone, 
All of my mistakes were unknown (to me )
My mind was filled with ego and lust!
I will agree that I broke his trust,
Desires forced me to do so !
Ignorance made me go with the flow
I...

Broke his heart!


I don't know,
Why is time passing so slow?
What am I doing ?
My brain is just cooing!
'Stop stressing me out so much,
i just want you to scotch.'
My sins can't leave me alone, 
All of my mistakes were unknown (to me )
My mind was filled with ego and lust!
I will agree that I broke his trust,
Desires forced me to do so !
Ignorance made me go with the flow
I...

Breathe
Breathe 
Breathe

Why aren't my lungs working?
Where did everyone go? 
What is happening to me?
Why is everything else moving so
S l o w

I know I look like a rambling madman,
But I don't know what else to do.
My mind is spinning like a top on fire,
And all I can see is blue… 

Blue,
Why blue?
I know I should be seeing red,
But all I see is tinted blue.
Like my mind has...

Clandestine solemn looks 
Swollen with salacious Sapphic pools
where we can pretend we can muse with relevant peace

We are seated at the dinner table and we hear a rumble
Philosophical wars wage because our love exists and it refuses to be tamed like the coils of your hair
There is a rumble because there is hunger, anger and passion 
Rolled neatly into a napkin

You shift at the arrival of the starter
Your engagement ring whispers there is no...

Clandestine solemn looks 
Swollen with salacious Sapphic pools
where we can pretend we can muse with relevant peace

We are seated at the dinner table and we hear a rumble
Philosophical wars wage because our love exists and it refuses to be tamed like the coils of your hair
There is a rumble because there is hunger, anger and passion 
Rolled neatly into a napkin

You shift at the arrival of the starter
Your engagement ring whispers there is no...

You left me when you swore you wouldn’t 
You stopped loving me when you swore you couldn’t 
You said you found comfort in my eyes
Yet all of that was simply lies
You said a million promises 
Each of which you broke
You saved me from a nightmare 
But then I never woke
You took my heart and played with it
As if it was your chew toy
Then after only a couple days 
Told me “I still like...

You left me when you swore you wouldn’t 
You stopped loving me when you swore you couldn’t 
You said you found comfort in my eyes
Yet all of that was simply lies
You said a million promises 
Each of which you broke
You saved me from a nightmare 
But then I never woke
You took my heart and played with it
As if it was your chew toy
Then after only a couple days 
Told me “I still like...

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isn't writing just dancing with words?

i.
dance.
        my movement is music/raw emotion flows through my body/tension through my muscles
            my leg climbs into the sky of its own accord
        like i am addicted to these passions/i can't stop dreaming of desires that aren't even mine to bear.
            cold concrete marks my bruised feet with promises that gravity can be overcome
        echoes/echoes/echoes
            "articulate your feet....

Life's a journey
Of delight and despair
As time flies through the air
Enjoy every bite
Because each journey has a beginning and an end
There are good chapters and bad chapters
Filled with obstacles and adventures
You are the traveller in your journey
What do you choose?
Remember, the path you choose
Leads you to your fate

You fall
Deep into the black hole
It swallows you whole
You swing your arms wildly in panic
Hoping
Hoping someone would...